There are a plethora of things I could write about tonight: the birth of Elias, the way the kids are interacting with each other, or life in general. But really what is plaguing my mind tonight is one thought: "What did I do when I only had one child?".
I clearly remember my life just before children. Working daily as an interpreter, riding the subway, eating New York City delicacies, and taking breaks by walking through Central Park. These memories are vivid.
Today as I stared down at Elias while he was nursing -- Isaac was calling from the bathroom for... ummmm... assistance; the two older kids were running through the house when they should have been working on their spelling; and Enoch... Enoch could have been abducted by aliens for all I knew; toys were scattered; dishes were still in the sink from breakfast; and laundry seemed to be taking on a life of it's own -- the thought raced through my head, "What did I do when there was only one?".
I remember the transition from the "working" world to life at home seemed such a big adjustment! I felt lost. But for the life of me, I can't remember what I did during those lazy days of long infant naps. As I contemplate the relative ease that my life must have been back then, when compared to my days now, my hope is that I enjoyed my time as I eased into motherhood. I wonder if one day I will look back on my todays and feel similar, wondering where the time had gone and hoping that I savored the little moments.
With that thought and another summons from Isaac:
I took a deep breath. [check]
Laid Elias down. [check]
Grabbed a couple of toys to put away. [check]
Told the kids to get back to work. [check]
Wiped an impatient little butt. [check]
All done with a little more love and a little more desire to create some long lasting memories.
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April- You are such an amazing woman! A role model that I look up to! You are absolutely incredible when it comes to motherhood and being a supportive wife! It's the moments of chaos that make you smile when all is calm!
I love you!
Amen sister! Marc keeps telling me these are the hardest days of motherhood. In another 10 years, we will be living the life a luxury. :) We will see. Be sure to do something for yourself today.
You said it sister. And while I never had the luxery of just one child, I do try and remember back to my pre-child days... trying to figure out what I did with all of my free time and what in the world I might have ever been stressed or overwhelmed about. It all seems so silly now. Such is life.
I think I was more stressed with one than I am with three. You get better at mothering but the work load piles higher. thanks for these thoughts (hope you dont mind my peeking :) I felt emotional reading them...hit a little close to home. so, did I read that you have a little Elias as well? great name! hope all is going well in your world... love Anna Rogers
I only have two (and a half) and I wonder the same thing. Oh, I fear not "living" in today, and wishing tomorrow for today again. These little ones own my heart!
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